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..For Jing..for Us….from Appleseeds.org

You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she’s gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Jings death has affected me so much.I guess kahit sino na mawalan ng mahal sa buhay would feel the same…at one point during jings burial i felt parang gusto ko naring sumunod..as if life is so meaningless…pero di pala dapat ganun..life must go on…i know my sister would want me to move on …ive come across these snippets of passages which struck me most…

• if you want to do something for someone you love, do it now, because you never know tomorrow, or the day after, he may not be around anymore."
• How flitting life is, how transitory; It’s comforting to know however, that for every sad event there are joyous ones to balance the scales; sometimes even to tip them in life’s favor.
• Being alive is already cause for celebration, especially in these times when there is so much uncertainty and you can never tell when your lease will expire.
• We’re all just leasing our space and time on Planet Earth, at the pleasure of our Landlord Who decides how long we can stay. Sometimes even when we pay our rent on time, we’re asked to moved out, and sometimes…we don’t even know why.
• So we must celebrate each year that adds itself to the rapidly growing pile, and try to live our lives as fully as we can. we should learn to measure time, not in years, but in the richness of how we live those years — the happy and good times, the sorrowful and bad times.

we love you Jing….kung nasaan kaman ngayon mahal na mahal ka namin…the pain that we’re experiencing right now  is really beyond words…mahirap mawalan ng mawalan ng mahal sa buhay lalong lalo na kung dalawa lang kayong magkapatid…my sister knows how much I admired her..I know that until her last breath she really fought it out…Hinding hindi ka namin makakalimutan…Hinding hindi ko pababayaan ang mga bata…pipilitin kong punan lahat para hindi maging dahilan ang iyong pagkawala na maging kakulangan sa kanlang pagkatao..pipilitin ko at ang tatay na palakihin silang mabubuting mga bata…Mahal na mahal ka namin…….

I know by now you already knew that my sister’s battle against breast cancer ended last Sunday May 6, 2007….

My family and i just want to extend our sincerest gratitude to all of you whose been with us thru prayers ….again though Shirly’s gone…I know in my heart that God will give back a hundredfold all the kindness and all the generosity that you’ve shown to Shirly…

Indeed its been a tough battle, but mind you Shirly really fought it out..SHE’s ABLE TO GIVE BREAST CANCER  A BIG FIGHT EVEN UNTIL HER LAST BREATH…

Thank you very very much for giving my SISTER  HOPE AND A CHANCE TO LIVE…

Words are not enough to express our gratitude to all of you…till the end we know that you’re with us…I pray that in Gods’ time ill be able to give back all the kindness that you’ve shown to me and my family..

Wherever shirly is right now  she’s happy and at peace ….and that she’ll never forget all of you ….

THANK YOU VERY MUCH AND GOD BLESS!!!

edith fallaria

Shirly’s first Chemo 05042007

Hi everyone…this is Edith Fallaria..sis of Shirly I know Soki has been very very busy these past few days..and i just want to inform all of you that Shirly just finished her first chemo today 05042007( the first of 3 cycles)..her blood count went form 52 to 150…. and We Owe it to All of you..Her chemotherapy wldnt be possible without your help…and my family and i as i keep on saying..will be forever Greatful to all of you…

Pls continue to pray for Shirly for the medicines that is in her body right now to cooperate so that Shirly will soon be free from Cancer…Nothing is impossible with God and we’re All Living  witness to that..(until now im so amazed on how God touched your hearts ..without seconds thoughts….to  help us find ways to buy all those medicines…..for all your generous souls).OUr sincerest gratitude to all of you…and again i know God will give back all the good things that you’ve done to Shirly a hundredfold…

Let me also take this opportunity to ask that we also pray for Soki’s mom that she’ll soon find her way to recovery and that all those "kidney stones" will be gone in her moms body…

As of this time..we’re finalizing everything…ill make sure to send you the copy of all the funds that we gathered and where it went  so that you’ll know that all of your help were  not wasted and that all of these were fully maximized for Shirly’s chemo…God is really good!!!!He gave us..Shirly …. more than enough….Second chemo wil be scheduled after 21 days frm today and im stil following it up at PCSO and accdg to them i just hve to call back within this week and God wills ill be able to get the medicines for Shirly’s second chemo…

Maraming maraming maraing salamat sa lahat ng tulong pinansyal at lalong lalo ng sa inyng mga dasal…

Again my family will be forever greatful to all of you

God bless and ill keep you posted …

Edith Fallaria

God is good…Shirly’s supposedly first chemo scheduled last April 26 was postponed due to her low blood count which falls down to 52…she was brought immediately at PGH’s .E.R. for blood transfusion and was advised for blood transfusion (5bags) …Sobrang daming challenges that day for Shirly but knowing my sister…she’s really fighting it very well..though there are really times na she just cant hide ung pain that she’s experiencing ..(just imagine how she went thru sa E.R. we had to wait from 12noon till 5pm bago kami makahanap ng stretcher for her to lie down..Thank God for the wheel chair na pinahiram samin..thru Soki’s help)coz currently medyo nagkaroon ng enlargement ng tummy nya which was accdg to her doctor eh normal lang especially sa condition nya na merong nakitang konting maliliit na bukol sa liver nya..but again WE know with God’s grace Nothing is impossible..We’ll Keep The FAITH…By Sunday Shirly was advised for discharge and she was scheduled again on Friday May 4,2007 to have her 1st chemo…she still needs to take the pre medication 3days prior to her chemotheraphy para hindi masyadong nyang ma experience ung effects n chemo..which if wre not careful can cause death sa patient…Again to all of you thank you very much  for everything for your prayers..we know that you’re with us youre with shirly all thru this and Please continue to Pray for her…God is good !!!and in time I know We’ll all witness Shirly’s recovery…Nothing is impossible with God…Many thanks again to Soki, mayet and Cris and her husband..your mere text messages really gives us Strength  esp those times na pati ako natataranta na rin…and its so humbling and heartwarming to know na andyan kayo to give support …many Thanks…

God bless !

i cant help but be amazed by God’s grace …sobrang napakabuti nya talga samin..(even if we’re not worthy of it)…Shilry will have her first chemo on April 26, 2007, 8:30 PGH Breast care center…and im set to call back on  wednesday, April 27 sa PSCO to follow up if her medicines for her 2d chemo are all ready for pick up…indeed God is Good and that He will make a way…again all these would not be possible without all her batchmates/classmates and friends…True enough Prayers can move mountains..again Thank you very very much..Ill never get tired of Thanking you…for all of these…

God bless!!

"God will make a way where there seems no way"…one of my fave lines…And My family and I are all living witness of these…

God will truly make a way…weeks before i sent an email  to one of my friend/classmate, May Mamangun,..i prayed to God na sana He’ll blessed me to find a way for Shirly’s Chemotherapy…during that time we really dont know kung san kami kukuha ng funds para mapachemo si Shirly and with God’s wisdom i finally found myself sending email to May…and in just a few days nagreply agad si May…and after weeks …we’ve been receiving calls and text messages from Shirly’s batchmates #@ PUPLHS…and God’s blessings continously poured on us…(never ending)..text messages from Shirly’s classmates based in Singapore(which i mentioned in my previous blogs), Ruel Enriquez, Mayet.. Ritchel..Cris (and her husband who came as far as montalban to visit shirly and pray for her)..tina Castillo.Herminio Soki to name just a few……As of writing…ive already secured funds for shirly’s first chemo scheduled either monday or thursday next week(April 23-26)..of course thru the help of Shirly’s batchmates…and by monday im scheduled to go back sa PCSO for my interview for Shirly’s 2d chemo…thru Tina Castillo’s help..Indeed God is Good and We’llmake a way for everything ..As long as there’s hope …as long as we keep on believing and have that Faith In "HIM" …if i my memory serves me right I remember soki telling me even people from  PUPLHS Batch 67 extend their interest in helping Shirly…Again To all of you…to Shirly’s batchmates/classmates/friends..MARAMING..MARAMING …MARAMING SALAMAT…The road to shirly’s battle against CANCER  is never easy..in fact its very,very difficult and painful but with your kind heart and prayers…She”ll Give CANCER  A GOOD FIGHT!!

Again..Thank you very much…God is Good and I know in my heart All of the things that you’ve done to shirly will be given back to you a hundredfold…Salamat ulit para maging instrumento kayong lahat para madugtungan ang buhay ni Shirly…

I’ll make sure to keep you posted for every detail and ill make sure to email you all the (medication) expenses as well as the funds that we receive from you guys…

My heartfelt Gratitude to all of you!

Edith Fallaria

Shirly and our family wants to extend our heartfelt thanks to Ruby, Agnes, Celeste, Eugene, Alfredo and David for the money that they sent to Shirly…Salamat ulit it means a lot to her as we are now preparing for her chemotheraphy  though were stil short of funds but with God’s help were almost there…

Same goes to Soki for making an effort  to call me and really finding  ways and means to help us ..To rithchel…mayet and to everybody whose been trying to call and reach shirly ..I tellyou guys it means a lot her …..

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

GOD WILL MAKE A WAY!!!as my sister, Shirly, continues her battle against cancer..Let this space be Our  means of THANKING everybody for making their way and helping us out (financially and most importantly thru prayers). Indeed everyday is a gift and that each day is a miracle from God..Let me thank our batch mates from P.U.PL.H.S.,May Mamangun for making her way to let our batch mates know Shirley’s condition …Ruel Enriquez for being the first one to call Shirly, Tina Castillo,Ruby, Agnes, Celeste, Eugene,Alfredo and David and for those people that i haven’t mentioned…God knows how Sincerely thankful we are for your help and most importantly for giving  Shirly a chance to LIVE..Its been a tough journey for Shirly but As we keep on Saying God is more powerful than any sickness or any cancer in this world and  with your help we know in Gods name She’ll MAKE IT!!!

Words are really not enough to express our gratitude to all of you…THANK YOU!!! and hopefully by next week Shirly Will have her first of 3 chemotherapy…we know you are with us in prayers…